today. I just want to touch on the subject of fear and anxiety Because there was a time in my life when I was so filled with fear and anxiety To the point where I really did think I was gonna lose my mind if something did not happen real quick And you know what I'm noticing that there's a lot of people that I love that are experiencing this kind of fear So I'm not even taking this thing lightly because I know lots of people Experience some type of fear.
I know there are different kinds of fears Some of them are rational and can be explained or managed through whichever kind of means whether it's medical or otherwise And then there's other kinds of fears which are really irrational.
They can't really be explained It's only the person who is experiencing that type of fear who can have some kind of irrational or quote-quote rational Explanation about why they are feeling the way they are why they are experiencing that type of anxiety And usually a lot of people looking in from the outside can't really understand why a person is afraid They're like, oh, why are you afraid of this and why are you afraid of that? Why are you afraid of that? You know what?
I mean, it can get so aggravating when people don't see where you're coming from But if you have experienced that type of fear, I'm sure you know what I mean So just leave me a comment and let me know if you have ever experienced a type of irrational fear that you can't understand And it will be interesting to know if you have overcome it and how you did overcome that fear. So drop me a comment Okay. All right. Let me tell you a few years ago.
I used to be so paranoid I used to be so afraid of being in any vehicle that was being driven at a speed of more than 40 miles an hour And it didn't matter whether that vehicle was being driven by myself or by anyone else And to be quite honest, even that 40 miles an hour was just too much But you know people gotta go where they need to go and things have to move the way they need to move But I was so terrified every time I got into a vehicle because I thought I was just gonna die Or that something ominous was going to happen and that would never reach our Destination and the tension that I would feel when I was in the car.
I would sweat bullets I would be applying those fake emergency breaks. You know what I mean? It was just such a terrifying feeling and everyone used to scream at me and tell me Caroline What's wrong with you?
Relax You're not gonna die and they would say all these kinds of things and I would be so fearful and my heart would be beating and You know, I'd have all these palpitations and I just couldn't wait to get to my destination It was so bad and I'd promised myself never to get into a car anymore You know, but still I had to get into the car and I even ended up getting a ticket because I was driving at 10 miles an hour to slow on the freeway You know, because I was just so afraid of just been driving at 10 miles an hour and just was so afraid that something was gonna happen if that You know speed went above 20 miles or 30 miles or 40 miles So and no one could understand this fear and let me tell you how this fear started This fear started when I got into a vehicle with someone who I thought cared for me and my family Okay, this person had bought a brand new BMW and in the beginning it was just so exciting and you know We just wanted to get into the car and just go for rides and all and it so happens that one day me and my siblings And this person went on a long-distance trip and on the way back This person decides to drive this vehicle at over 90 or a hundred miles an hour He was driving so fast and weaving in and out of traffic You know those dangerous drivers that you usually see on the road That was him and we were in that vehicle.
I was so afraid I just remember just closing my eyes and just thinking that I was gonna die and people were hooting at us and you know They even sent a cop car to come and stop this particular vehicle and I was just like oh my god We are gonna die. We are gonna die. I mean before the cop stopped the car. We were just like I'm dead. I'm dead I'm dead and let me tell you I realized something You know how people usually think what are you gonna do when it's the last minute Just before you die.
What are you thinking about? You know, and I noticed that in those particular moments I thought about absolutely no one. I thought about nothing. I knew I was gonna die It was just a blankness. There was nothing. I didn't think about my family. I didn't think about my friends I didn't think about nothing.
It was just a blank Still quietness just waiting for that big bang crash to happen because that's what I really thought was gonna happen So I'm not sure about those people who see the light and that's great and whatever But for me what I noticed was that in those moments when I really really thought we were gonna crash because of the speed That you were going at and just the whole paranoia and the silence In that car at those moments after pleading and pleading and pleading with this person to slow down and he had refused We all became quiet and silent and I just felt in those moments that oh my god anytime now The big bang the big bang and there was nothing in my head.
There was absolute nothingness in my head Okay, so that moment or that day Was the beginning of my paranoia. You know what I mean? Anyway to cut this story short the cops finally came and stopped the vehicle and then you know He was given tickets or whatever But one interesting thing that I noticed was that this person even after the fact This person did not care about us. The person did not care about me The person did not care about my siblings. The person did not care about nothing.
Okay, and this Realization made me look at my own self and wonder how much did I value my own life?
You know, there really is no accident I mean, this is just how I operate in my own life that things just don't happen Without a reason There's only something that's there to be learned and there's something to be perceived and I love people don't agree with this perspective And that's fine This is how I live my life because this is how I use things that happen in my life Experiences to explain certain things to me and if I don't like those things I change myself and then as a result of changing myself I noticed that my outer world also begins to change So that was really a good opportunity for me to see how much I did not value my life I didn't value my life at that time And that's the honest truth because after I did my own inner work to see why certain things were happening in my life I noticed that I didn't value my life and therefore other people didn't value my life And I always tended to put myself in situations where people would prove to me and show me over and over again That I did not value my life whether it was at work at work People did not appreciate me They didn't see me as being the person who was qualified and competent and worthy of a promotion or a raise And I was always being undervalued when I got into this relationships with people It was almost the same thing.
They would just treat me as though my life had no meaning You know what I mean? They would just do certain things that was just beyond me and really it was just such a terrible terrible time in my life Trying to understand all these kinds of things But that was such a teachable moment for me about the value of self How to honor myself how to live in integrity.
I realized what a low self esteem I had about myself how I placed so little value upon my life and I took drastic measures I'm telling you I took drastic measures to change this whole situation around and let me tell you something Because I was so keen to change my life because I no longer wanted to be afraid of entering into our car Because I needed to get things done. I needed to get to work. I needed to not live in fear At that time I wasn't even a spiritual person.
I was just like oh my god, you know What's going on? Okay? I didn't even know so much about the belief in higher power. I didn't really trust the church I was a religious person and of course you hear about protection But it's just something out there. You know what I mean? It's just like, okay You know these things happen, but how really is it? I never really had a personal experience that I could be protected By any beings, okay?
I had no idea I was just like oh a regular church going present with no personal experience to speak about But one day I just happened to bump into this Group of people there were spiritual people and they were talking about angels and they introduced me to the idea of angels and at that particular time I Was just so desperate for anything that would protect me and these people were talking about angels and about how Ack Angel Michael was a protection angel and those Ack Angel Gabriel and those Ack Angel Raphael and those Ack Angel Uriel, you know and those Ack Angel Raphael and they were talking about how to position these angels around you and how they would protect you and things like that.
And so when I heard about these angels Something just clicked in me and I just felt you know what?
Let me latch on to this idea I'm gonna take this angel place it in the front of my car I'm gonna take this angelic energy and ask it to be on the right side of my car on the left side of my car at the Back of my car inside of my car, and I'm just gonna believe that these angels are gonna take me safely to my destination And the reason I'm saying this is Not because I want anyone to believe in angels The reason I'm saying this is to encourage you that if you are living in fear of any kind or experiencing any kind of paranoia You are not alone.
That's the first thing and ideas Revelations or even wisdom can come to you through various sources to give you that insight that you need To help you get out of those limiting beliefs And if you take those pearls of wisdom and apply them to your own life You can truly truly change your life and this has nothing to do with religion It has nothing to do with nobody It has everything to do with you and where you want to go in your life and the risks and the courage That you have to take in order to experience the fullness and the beauty of life.
That is what happened to me angels changed my life the Idea of angels changed my life.
You know these days I believe in angels But my idea of angels has really really evolved in the beginning I used to think that this winged beings and whatnot and that's fine Because there's an aspect to it and there are certain people who obviously still believe in their idea of winged beings Which is perfect and which is great and fantastic in however it comes through because of the symbolism These days I totally understand things in different ways and there's a lot of symbolism and a lot of things are just ideas That once you connect to those ideas They can really help you evolve from one step to the other if you think about it, especially from a lot of these religious Perspectives angels were always messengers of God.
They were always brought good news They always protected people and whatnot. You know what I mean?
They always fought on our behalf and things like that and as I have evolved in my own awareness And in my own spiritual growth, I now have a different understanding of angels as being ideas that come from spirit and Messages that come from spirit that we have to latch on to to help us move into the next step Okay, they're not like these physical beings or whatnot even though I've had some really interesting experiences around that But it's always a spiral, you know You keep growing and growing and growing and evolving until you realize that in the end everything is you Everything is coming from your spirit to you as a message For you to evolve because you yourself are really a powerful being so that's my understanding So any who if you are experiencing fear or any type of paranoia Remember that you are not alone and there's always wisdom that's coming through from the higher realms to you or from your spirits Speaking directly to you and it might come in any kind of form Okay, it may come to you through any kind of belief that you decide to adopt in the moment to help you Latch on to something positive that's gonna move you forward.
It could be through the angelic realm It could be through your dreams.
It could be through your work with crystals It could be through your work with meditation It could be through your work with any other spiritual or religious Organization it could be through people speaking to you and counseling you and giving you some kind of therapy It could be through anything But just remember not to get lost in all these fearful things that are going on Remember that you can move beyond those things Remember that there's certain lessons or certain things or certain experiences that you can have that can lead you into Understanding yourself even more and when you work on those deep deep rooted issues a lot of this fear that you're experiencing Can dissipate and completely go away.
I cannot believe that it's been over 15 years now and I am such a good driver I am always on the road like zooming at you know I don't even think about what happened in the past anymore life has completely changed for me I truly am not the person that I was many years ago And it's just interesting to even notice my own evolution. It's just such a beautiful thing, okay? So let me know in the comment section. Have you experienced any type of massive debilitating fear or any kind of paranoia?
How have you dealt with it? Has your spirituality helped you? What do have you believed in that has really assisted you? Let me know and I truly hope that everyone's doing good I also offer personal one-on-one Consultations about how to work with your spiritual tools. So hit me up at Caroline and crystal stock calm and in the meantime Let's keep Overcoming because that is who we are. Okay, get rid of fear. I love you guys